joints and kisses...why didn't he notice?

argh. i hate coming down in the middle of the day. i just want to go back to sleep. unfortunately, i have to go christmas shopping with my mum. but i get to drive my car (yay!), so it won't be that bad.i went to go see lucas last night. it feels so good to be with him. just to hear his voice every day, to HAVE him...i can't explain it. it's just so odd. i've waited for him for 3 years now and it's fucking finally happening. still, i can't help but think about steve all the time...how could i not? he was the sweetest, hottest, most dreamy and squeezeable druggie-punk-musician with a pink mohawk i'd ever laid eyes on. ah, i'd give anything to see him even one more time...aahhh, sentimental shit! how'd that escape? argh. now i need to go smoke a cigarette and try to absolve myself of any memories of ex-boyfriends. well, faithful readers, i must leave you. but don't worry, i will return. be sure to keep tuned until the next episode of my "my so-called life" drama!habye.